If only you're just as sweet as a cupcake..

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 ; 12:54 AM

I can't get myself to fall asleep.

Neither can I keep myself awake.

The thought of them kills me.

I wonder how much more I can take.

It's gonna be 5 am soon and I am still awake.

I miss having someone to talk to this late.

Oh my.. This is what I really hate....

Had a study group after school.

Managed to cover only a few questions.

There's no class for me today!

So I must start my serious revision.

So today I shall cover Front Office & Facilities & Accommodation.

C is giving me a HUGE headache!

Why oh why.. Why me?

C said he's serious and wants to marry me!

HAHAHA! OH MY!

Typical foolish immature boy.

He barely knows me!

And R, you upset me A LOT!

I think the song 'kantoi' is really good!

In the sense of lyrics :)

I can't stop playing the song!

Monday, May 25, 2009 ; 4:59 PM

They come and go without warnings.

They keep me waiting for miracles to happen.

And whenever I wait, my hopes will be crushed.

Now I have to protect myself with a secret weapon.

I'm glad that I prayed yesterday after oooh-sooo-long! :)

F&B operations class is FULL of FRENCH terms!

Such a HUGE headache!

Exams next week!

I must start SERIOUS revision from tomorrow onwards!

Study group tomorrow! :D

Went to coffee shop after school just now.

With a few classmates and 2 other schoolmates.

One of the 2 is a matrep!

Who has eye problem!

He loves to stare! SHEESH!

And he thought I'm a Phillipino all these while.. -.-"

SILLY MATREP!

And the other one is one of his girls.

Very arrogant! CIS!

I don't see why I should care when you don't.

I can't take it anymore.

I can't stand being a spare tyre for this long.

Yeah, I should quit fretting over R and A.

YES! I should..

I'll take things slow..

Take them as a friend and nothing more.

You claimed that I'm something more than a friend.

Someone you miss all the time.

But well, it seems to be an irony.

What you do and what you say are two completely different things.

I believe what I see not what I hear from you.

And now tell me...

Tell me what makes you different than all the guys from my past?

No difference am I right?

Yeah.. I am so right...

You were so proud to tell me that you are different.

SHEESH!

Thursday, May 21, 2009 ; 4:34 PM

Let them have a splendid time.

Because I know everyone deserve a good life.

So what's the point fretting?

Let's move on and continue to strive!

I know I was only 14.

But i thought i loved him and I'd last forever.

But only if i knew that he wasn't true.

How could he do this to me.

Yesterday there was a BIG issue.

It wasn't my fault at all!

It is the officer's fault!

If only I knew who was the officer who got me into deep trouble..

I would have killed him!

HAHAHA!

Thank you lady officer for resolving the problem! :)

I was so afraid that I might be locked up!

PHEW!! :D

I have decided not to be too close to R and A.

Why? Because I've got no other choice.

A seems to be moving on well.

R seems to get closer to the girl from his past.

Let them live happily ever after :)

Friday, May 15, 2009 ; 11:07 PM

I was wide awake at 3 in the morning.

The thought of you can't seem to fade.

It seems to be a very disturbing fact.

But somehow it seems like I have found my mate.

So today marks the start of the new module.

F&B operations is quite a killer with all the french term!

Class was super boring because we are not allowed to talk.

We were all freezing cold at 27 degrees Celsius.

It seems like the air conditioner was not functioning properly.

Oh yes, this lecturer is TOO STRICT.

And I have to see her four times a week!

Lucky me, every Wednesday is my off-school day! :)

Less than two weeks to external exams!

AHHHHHHH!

Revision in progress...

I'm glad that I have friends like S and M.

I owe them a lot alright! :D

Because they are my happy buddies! :)

Why are they interfering with my personal life?

Why should they bother about who am I going out with?

Why should they report to him on my every move?

It's not like he's my boyfriend.

Yes, it keeps me wondering why I still cling on to A.

Why oh why?

Now I shall take one small step at a time.

No rushing.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 ; 3:27 PM

Twinkle twinkle little star,

Why do my dreams seem so far.

Up above the world so high,

Won't somebody tell me why.

I had tourism paper today.

And man, trust me it was a SERIAL KILLER!

But I still think yesterday's paper which is marketing is the worse ever!

Now I don't know what to expect for the external exams.

Please be do-able! PLEASE!

I am going to have three days off school!

YIPPY! :)

There'll be a leadership skills workshop on Saturday!

My new module will commence on Monday.

And I still haven't printed out my notes!!

AHHHHHHHH!

I hope the second module will be much better than the first one.

The PRINCESS who never fail to make me smile :)

Monday, May 4, 2009 ; 3:27 PM

I try to convince myself every now and then

that you are just like one of them.

But somehow you make an exception.

No matter what you do, you still get my attention.

I have no complete idea why R have been on my mind.

I have been thinking about R.

Much more than what I thought was possible.

This is not love, definitely a NO NO.

This is totally impossible at this point of time.

I think I know what this is, it's a strong liking I have towards R.

Right now, I am in a super deep confusion.

We both meet up once a week.

I like the idea of meeting up with R.

He never fail to make my day.

But I am afraid that by meeting up, I am giving R the wrong signal.

Ahhh! DAMSEL IN DISTRESS!

Internal exams have started!

Business Operations paper on Monday was TOUGH!

The moment I read the first question, I was stunned!

I have no idea how others can leave way before the time is up.

The time limit given was till 11.30.

Almost the whole class left before 10.45!

Today's Front Office paper was do-able to my surprise! :)

I was smiling to myself throughout the whole paper.

Tomorrow will be Facilities & Accommodation paper.

I know it will be a KILLER!

HELP ME! HELP ME!

So now it's like 2 papers down, 3 to go! :)

External papers in JUNE!

It's coming real soon!

Our exam venue will be in a hotel at Orchard!

COOL OR WHAT?! :D

I am aiming for a distinction for at least two papers.

But a pass for all papers will do! :)

As long as I get that hotel management certificate,

I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY!

And then... I shall LEAVE this country for GOOD!

So please, can I have at least a pass for every paper? :D

Boyfriend.

I miss talking to my boyfriend about school.

I miss talking to my boyfriend for long hours.

I miss having my boyfriend all to myself.

I miss going to school with my boyfriend.

I miss messing up my boyfriend's hair.

I miss punching my boyfriend's arm.

I miss writing poems for my boyfriend.

I miss singing with my boyfriend.

I miss leaving my boyfriend long text messages.

I miss having a miss call from my boyfriend.

I miss laughing with my boyfriend.

I miss being missed by my boyfriend.

I miss being loved by my boyfriend.

I miss shopping with my boyfriend.

I miss having lunch with my boyfriend.

I miss going to gym with my boyfriend.

Simply said, I miss all the comfort I can get from my boyfriend.

But I don't think I can handle boyfriends any time soon.

Somehow, it seems impossible to find THE ONE.

It's like all the boys are stars.

Shining and attractive in their very own way.

But all similar in one way or another.

And THE ONE is like the moon.

Attractive and stand out from the others.

Different in a good way.

I know... it won't come easy.