Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ; 12:41 PM
In the attempt of finding something true.
I have decided to give it another try.
Hoping for a little difference, I turn to you.
Hopefully, it won't be a repeated history.
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Yes, choices do have consequences.
And I know right now I am facing it all.
I know one by one, they are leaving.
But if they are true, they are here to stay.
I've faced it all before and it will just continue.
At the beginning, they make it all seem so sweet.
However, as time goes by, it turns sour.
Maybe I am fated to face life this way.
Maybe I just don't deserve having them.
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The presentation that is due tomorrow is still incomplete!
DEAD MEAT!
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It's funny how people from my past are making a come back.
One by one they start making a special appearance.
What do they want now?
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Last Sunday, 10.25 pm - 10.40 pm.
We stood fascinated by the moon on our way back home.
It's just those days where the moon looks different.
It was pretty cool, hard to describe the whole thing.
I love every moment spent with them :)
As annoying as they can get, at the end of the day, they'll still stand by my side.
We joked as usual, talk about our grades and future.
We eat out often these days and that made our bond stronger.
The only time we would see all 5 is on Friday to Sunday.
That is also for certain parts of the day.
Therefore, I look forward to dining out again with them.
And the moral of the story is I love my family :)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ; 11:51 AM
Maybe it's about time I give it another try.
But I can't risk all the wonderful stuff for this.
I don't know what I should do now.
Yeah, choices have consequences.
I don't have the guts to make any choice.
Monday, July 20, 2009 ; 11:38 PM
There's just too much going on today.
I just want to put a stop to everything.
Why is history starting to repeat itself?
How I wish I could just put it all aside.
I am sorry my dearest friends.
It's not that I choose to ignore you.
Or I choose to move on from you.
I am just too occupied these days.
I have so much issues to settle.
Everything is going haywire for me right now.
I just hope everything will be settled real soon.
I hope you guys can understand my situation.
Once again, I am really sorry.
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Have you ever felt like running to a far away place?
Not letting anyone know of your whereabouts.
Just cry your heart out and be alone...
Without letting those who care worry...
Without causing any trouble for anyone.
That's what I want...
Sunday, July 19, 2009 ; 11:05 AM
Sunrise, sunrise.It marks the start of something new.
Sunrise, sunrise.
I no longer want to feel blue.
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It's been a VERY BUSY week for me.
And I will be much more busier from now on.
Examination period is nearing....!
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So I attended the Job Enhancement skills workshop on Saturday.
I stayed awake throughout the 8 hours long workshop!
We did a personality test and it turned out to be totally true!
HOW SCARY!
A few pictures that was snapped:
- As much as she wants to leave,
she simply knows she can't.
As much as she wants to run away,
She knows she will continue to stay.
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Quote of the day: Thanks for your support :)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ; 5:29 PM
As soon as this game is over,I am going to make a move.
Because its yucky to feel sober.
I am going to leave for good.
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Went out for a while with Mya and Iqa today :)
Here are some pictures:
-How can one kill a feeling so strong?
The more one tries to let it go, the more it hurts.
The further one runs away, the more one would be haunted.
All I want is to stop caring too much.
Because all it does is hurt.
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I am a real life walking punching bag now.
Grrr! HAHA!
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Quote of the day: The next thing she'll say is she owns the White House.
Monday, July 13, 2009 ; 1:52 PM
As dark as the sky can get,As heavy as the rain can pour,
Always remember that the sun will shine.
Just give it a few minutes, hours or more.
It's just a matter of time that your life will be embraced with the 'sunshine'.
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There will be a workshop this Saturday.
From 10am to 6pm!
Hopefully I won't fall asleep!
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Ahhh! Thankfully, after so long!
Daddy managed to so called fix it :)
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It is totally pointless laying hopes on you.
Anyway, there's always her when there's no me.
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What if you knew what I was thinking,
would it make you like 'WOW!'?
I don't want to risk, putting my foot in this.
So I keep my mouth closed.
Got to button my lips so the truth don't slip.
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Shall start studying for the examination from next week onwards.
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Oh yes, CONGRATULATIONS Kamal!
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Quote of the day: No pink today? :)
Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ; 1:07 PM
I fell once, I fell twice.I feel pretty silly now.
I hated once, I hated twice.
Maybe I should run away now.
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I got tired of waiting.
I got tired of chasing.
I got tired of trying.
Seriously, I give up.
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THANK YOU MY FRIENDS! :)
Thank you for being there for me.
Through good and bad times.
THANK YOU SO SO MUCH! :)
I treasure everyone of you.
And, I don't want to lose any of you.
You are all as lovely as a cupcake can be :D
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I can't get two song out of my mind.
Those two songs describe my love story journey :)
Songs for the broken hearted.
The songs can make you feel much better :)
Heidi Montag - No more.
Ashley Tisdale - It's alright, it's okay.
Wooohoooo! GREAT SONGS! :)
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I shall wait no longer.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 ; 5:28 PM
SCHOOL!
Photos taken at school from January to July:
Sunday, July 5, 2009 ; 2:35 AM
The clock never stopped ticking.Day and night, as time goes by,
I just can't stop thinking.
All I need is a simple lullaby.
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Running through this complex mind,
I found myself wanting to be around you.
I keep wondering if you are meant to be mine.
Because I can't stop thinking of you, it's true.
I am not creating my own series of fiction.
I am not creating a fairytale I can call my own.
All I want is your purely honest attention.
Sometimes it does feel like you're my clone.
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It's true what I've learnt from a wise friend.
A guy is always sweet when he is trying to win your heart.
He'll do anything to make you smile.
He'll do anything to please you.
He'll be as sweet as a cupcake can be.
But when he's yours, it will be a whole new cycle.
He'll turn into a cupcake without an icing.
And slowly turn into a cupcake that has turned bad.
And sometimes, so bad that it may contain salmonella.
And then it could make you totally sick.
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I was pretty much in pink today.
As I stepped into the class, the lecturer went...
'You like pink?' and I was like 'YAH!' :)
When I reach my grandmum's place,
the baby looked at me and said....
'PINK KAKAK!' HAHA! My oh my..
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Examination period will start in about one month's time!
RUN, TAKE COVER...!
Friday, July 3, 2009 ; 8:17 PM
Life is like a complicated road.Now, I'm in the middle of the junction,
Which way should I go, right or left.
So tell me now, which is the right direction.
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A: I wan to take risk. .i onli wil giv up if u gt sum1 else
Me: How sure are you of what you are doing?
A: Im sure bc0z u the onli one who st0le my heart. .bc0z i l0ve u so much. .bc0z u the onli one who cn make me cry. .u the onli one whom i hav waited for 7 suffering months even after countless times crying and been rejected.
Me: You know i can't love anymore right...
A: haiz. .if u dun l0ve me its okay. .i stil hav h0pe but im ready to b hurt again. . Its okay. .its me hu decide to l0ve and wait 4 u. .u alrdy gave up ur l0ve. .
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So now I'm the bad one.
I don't want to hurt or be hurt.
I forgot how to love, I'm sorry.
I can't get back with you right now.
I am still hurt by the past.
You lied, you cheated and much more.
So tell me how can I give you a second chance?
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The Princess :)
Thursday, July 2, 2009 ; 5:45 PM
As far as I could rememberYou used to be the ultimate special one.
As far as where I've left it all, I realise
You're no longer the one that I want.
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I feel so sleepy and weak yet I want to stay awake.
I don't know exactly why I want to stay awake.
How weird.
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As everyone know, every guy is so into Megan Fox.
Surprisingly, Rain turned her down.
He is totally different and hard to find :)
But who knows he might want her too in the future?
Let's wait and see if he can prove me wrong.
Prove to me that not all guys are the same.
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This was written by him, I quoted it:
'seriousli it hurts wen u say u dun love me even when i love u whole heartedly.yes i know i made a stupid move by leaving u. im sorry. i have realised that i really love u. but now after u said that u dun love me at all, u dun miss me as ur boifren, it hurts. it hurts!im crying every now and then juz wen i rmbred u. i feel sad wen i open my wallet. firstly , u boought that for me, secondly, our pic is still inside that wallet. evryday i look at it. i nvr take it out even once.its been nearly 7 months since the break up. i 've been hurting myself since then.i cn chose to move on but i still want to be with you.yes, u may not be the perfect girl that i've been looking for but no matter what i still love u. i just dun know how to show it to u. i have ever tried to avoid u but i cnt. i 'll die if i do. i just love u so much. i dun wan the 3 years to be a waste.y are u keep doing this to me?? y? i know im hurt due to my own fault but y cnt u just give me a chance?? u are killing me! i have faith in us gettng together. now its up to u. u cn chose to be with me or not. yes im mad, im sad im in pain, but still i dun care. i wan to be with you.! i know u have move on. new life, new friends. cnt u consider turning back for the sake of our lost love? i still hope u will be mine! now i know how tiring to cry every nite thinking of the past. if u wan me dead tell me , i will kill myself. but please dun do ths to me.'
Am I being totally heartless?
Am I bad now?
What am I to do?
I'm stuck.
Sunrise, sunrise.
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As dark as the sky can get,
I fell once, I fell twice.
Life is like a complicated road.
As far as I could remember